the beginning...

How does it happen that a middle aged woman, married 25 years with 3 grown children gets involved with another man for the first time ever? Here's the long story.
It all started with the internet of course...having gotten online for the first time it wasnt long until my curiosity led me into chat. I had heard so much about it I just had to see and of course I was swept into it. It was fascinating and amazing and FUN! I could come in here and talk to all kinds of people from everywhere and never leave the living room! It was easy to get past the pervs with their obvious lines that just wanted to talk dirty for a kick...had been doing that for years. But it was the friendships that sprang from the masses that were insidious. One in particular, just a friend..somebody to talk over the happenings of the day, any problems we might be having, opinions ...somebody to spend time with who listened and cared. I hadnt known it before, but that was missing in my life, even with all the people around me, I was lonely and he was there and WANTED to be there. When he suggested a movie in the middle of the afternoon one day..i thought wow..a movie with a friend..thats harmless, out in public, no big deal right? And it wasnt a big deal. What i hadnt counted on was being so comfortable with him. It felt natural to be there laughing with him eating popcorn. It was several months before a meeting came up again. A lot had happened in the meantime, my mother was sick and I had moved to be with her. He had been there the whole time giving me encouragement and support. He drove 12 hours to spend the weekend with me. We stayed at a motel together but didnt have sex...I felt guilty enough just being there with him. Not guilty enough to forgo the pleasure of his company tho. There was no pressure from him to do anything I didnt feel comfortable doing. 2 weeks later he made the drive again to spend time with me. Same thing....just being together talking, taking walks, watching tv....just felt natural and right. to be continued........................