Facets

When I am with Friend A, I am conservative and a bit reserved. With Friend B I am attractive and sexy. With Friend C I am playful, maybe a bit bawdy and naughty. With Friend D I am smart. Which is the Real V? All of them of course, so why do I seem to be different people? Am I just acting a part for each of them depending on what they want of me? I don't think that's the case. I believe it's about the facets. We are all made of so many different facets and there is a time for each one to be viewed. Friend A is laid back, therefore that side of me is dominant in her presence, and do on down the list.
I believe that anyone who says they are the same all the time is deluding themselves. Who we are at any given moment is influenced by many things. How we feel at the time, where we are, who we are with. Why shouldn't we enjoy all the parts of ourselves? Some of our facets maybe destructive or harmful ...those we can try to put on the bottom but must I bury the playful part of me? The occasional waspish part of me? I don't think so. There is a time and a place for all the 'facets' of V.....let 'em shine!

Two Wolves

Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pit y, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:"Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

I got this in my email today and thought about what it was saying.....then I thought about what a friend said recently on a blog post about jealousy and how it made him feel bad to have those feelings. All of us have 'inner demons' that rear their ugly heads sometimes. Wouldn't it be nice if we were perfect and never jealous or if we were never vain or unkind. It just doesn't happen. Humans are just human. Most of us who care manage to be pretty decent people and keep the demons on the back burner. Of course there are things that push them to the front, it's just our choice if we 'feed' them and keep them strong or if we put them, weak and unfed, in the back again.

Well I made it through March 1st again. It was better this year, just a few random moments of painful memories. It gets easier to deal with every year. I doubt the time ever comes that I can remember just the good times, but at least I don't feel like I am stuck in some kind of emotional limbo these days. Anyway...I love you and I miss you Mother...I remember.