Two Wolves

Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pit y, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:"Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

I got this in my email today and thought about what it was saying.....then I thought about what a friend said recently on a blog post about jealousy and how it made him feel bad to have those feelings. All of us have 'inner demons' that rear their ugly heads sometimes. Wouldn't it be nice if we were perfect and never jealous or if we were never vain or unkind. It just doesn't happen. Humans are just human. Most of us who care manage to be pretty decent people and keep the demons on the back burner. Of course there are things that push them to the front, it's just our choice if we 'feed' them and keep them strong or if we put them, weak and unfed, in the back again.

Well I made it through March 1st again. It was better this year, just a few random moments of painful memories. It gets easier to deal with every year. I doubt the time ever comes that I can remember just the good times, but at least I don't feel like I am stuck in some kind of emotional limbo these days. Anyway...I love you and I miss you Mother...I remember.