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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Mom
Well here it is again....same time every year. March first....4 years she has been gone now and it doesnt seem to be getting any easier for me at all... the memories just flood in and the pain rolls over me in waves....can't stop crying tonight and i really hate that since it just doesnt help at all. I miss you Mom, keep smiling and I'll see you when its time.
This is W, my 2 yr old grandson. He has beautiful golden brown hair that is very straight. Since his first haircut at age 1 we have been trying to find someone who could cut his hair evenly and make it look like it should. We have not been able to. I have cut the hubby's hair for all of our married life..and did our kids when they were smaller, so I decided to try it myself. What could it hurt right? What was I thinking? I wasn't drunk or even hallucinating at the time!! What a HUGE mistake. I went to the store and bought new clippers because the ones I have are older and I wanted them to be sharp. We got in the middle of the room...put a small chair up on a dining room chair and draped a sheet around the whole bunch. Wooohooo an adventure..let's get a haircut! I put the large guard on the clippers and awayyyyyyyyyyyy we go...swipe swipe...Oh My God. That straight hair was just sliding thru those clippers! ohhhhhhhhhhhh HELLLLLLLLLLLLL!! I'm getting a little nervous about this great idea by now, so I will just trim up the back a little bit and not worry about the rest right now...Ouch! he jerked and there is a big hole right in the back and the way it is flowing thru the clippers it looks like i put a bowl on his head and cut it...there are long pieces from the top that the clippers aren't catching....this ain't looking good. By now he is bored, ducking his head and turning it and won't be still and flopping around...and the end result is this beautiful smile now being topped by a head of hair that looks like his 3 year old cousin cut it with the weedeater! Now, am I going to get brave and try to straighten up my mess? or , Oh Lord, face the humiliation of having to take him to the barber and confessing my sins? Poor poor lil kid might have to learn to wear a cap early!!
I LOVE KISSING. Kissing has to be one of the most wonderful things people ever discovered! What I find interesting are the differences in the way people kiss. Some are a bit more aggressive, some a bit more sensual..so I made a rough listing and feel free to add any I might not have thought about..it HAS been a very long time since I did any research on this subject lol.... STABBERS: These are the ones who kiss in a thrusting motion (depth is the only variation) SWIPERS: These are the ones who have the very rapid side to side motion ( depth is the only variation) SLIMERS: These are the WET ones SLIDERS: These are the ones who slide their tongue around and over , in and out
SWISHERS: These make a circular motion SMASHERS: These are the ones who don't use the lips in kissing....basically keeping them compressed (anything could be going on inside) SLURPERS: The ones who lick and suck alot ok, what do ya'll think? Any others? And which ones are we? I am confessing to having a sliding swisher slurper preference lol.
A little old lady, well into her eighties, slowly enters the front door of a sex shop. Obviously very unstable on her feet, she wobbles the few feet across the store to the counter. Finally arriving at the counter and grabbing it for support, stuttering she asks the sales clerk: "Dddooo youuuu hhhave dddddiilllldosss?" The clerk, politely trying not to burst out laughing, replies: "Yes we do have dildos. Actually we carry many different models." The old woman then asks: "Dddddoooo yyyouuuu ccaarrryy aaa pppinkk onnee, tttenn inchessss lllong aaandd aabboutt ttwoo inchesss ththiickk...aaand rrunns by bbaatteries ? The clerk responds, "Yes we do." " Ddddooo yyoooouuuu kknnnoooww hhhowww tttooo ttturrrnnn ttthe ssunoooffabbitch offffff?"
Oh My God!! I got this in my email and nearly fell out of the chair laughing...the mental image that was in my poor lil brain..tisk tisk!! While I am a long way from being an expert on toys, this reminded me of one I had awhile back.... it was such an innocent looking lil cute thing....a double bullet they called it. That should have been a tip off.....that thing was deceptive. Turn it on and just hang on for the ride, it literally buzzed the orgasm right out of you..and to use both of them at the same time...well it was NOT for the weak hearted! I was unhappy when it broke lol. A friend of mine just went to work in an adult toy shop..she says 'I get 50% off come shop!" I am thinking that might not be a bad idea at all...no telling what might be out there that could be LOTS of fun!!! *naughty laugh*
The small hours of the morning are here again. I lay in my bed and close my eyes but no rest comes, instead my body comes alive..........I can feel lips on mine and hands stroking my body, I hear words whispered in my ear and I feel soft waves of desire rippling thru me..... I open my eyes but there is only darkness...and I want and wait for the light.
Close those doors Don't let 'em in! Keep those walls strong and stay where you belong They are just playing What they say isn't true It's just a game The prize is you
The prize is you That much is true They only see the parts that show Never look to see the treasure below They move on to a new game Thinking they won Not realizing what's true, The prize they left behind Was you
Well the news from the Dr. this week was not as good as I had hoped...my friend has cancer. It's also not nearly as bad as it could have been since apparently it is in the very early stages. Thank God!! It's still very frightening to realize that your body contains something that can kill you...not like if they told you you have the measels or even the clap!! I just hope that in some way I can help...that I will be allowed to help.
The weather is YUCK today, gray and rainy..and somehow I am having a sleepover tonight! lol It started off with us taking the lil ones for pizza tonight.....I told my son if he and his wife want to go out and eat without the 2 lil ones it's their chance...I keep them while they work but its rare that they do anything without the lil ones when they are off. My daughter is off today too but her lil one would be coming over tonight because she has to go to work early in the morning, he stays with me overnight most of the week anyway tho. Anyway, son says 'Mom are ya'll still taking the kids for pizza fri night?' and I say ' sure . ..kids have been talking about it all week!' So he says, 'well ya'll will be coming back kinda late huh?' 'well, no...was planning on going kinda early so we could be back by bedtime!' lol and he goes on..' well, why don't you just go ahead and keep em and i will pick up some breakfast and bring it and come get them sat morning'! ZIP BAM BOOM....pajama party at Granny's! lol watch out Chuckie Cheese.....we are on the way!!!
I was walking out of the library yesterday with the lil ones..and my phone rang...a close friend says ' i have a problem' so i ask what......the cancer that was treated with radiation this time last year has showed back up according to the bloodwork done last week at a checkup. The Dr says the options are radiation again with a 25% chance it might work or removal of the body part that is diseased. That doesn't seem like much of an option really...so when is the surgery I ask? Don't know will have to tell the Dr the decision and see what arrangements are made. Ok I make a joke and try to get a chuckle...this is horrible news! So I hang up the phone and blubber a minute and go on with my errands, the day is shot. About an hour later the phone rings again, they called back and the lab results got mixed up...the friend is FINE!!! THANK GOD!!! Now I really wanna cry...I am so relieved..then it hits me...they SCREWED UP AND PUT EVERYBODY WHO CARED THRU HELL!!! They caught the error sure, what if they hadn't? Would my friend be having unnecessary surgery?? I wonder if they have any idea of the emotional stress involved in hearing something like that?? I think not, if they did they would check and double check to make sure no mistakes were made.... AAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGG!!!! I am SO pissed at the lab, and SO glad they caught their error, and SO very very glad my friend is doing ok. More good news coming along these lines next week too, I'm SURE!! (((hugs ))) to everybody, I'm in a huggy mood !
